A"Mission Statement" of sorts I guess.

So as you all very well may have heard by now, Jordan, (NightHawk) has been released from jail. I am now on the street looking fly and looking fly and talking gibberish. Some of you have even seen me out and about here and there in the past 8 or 9 days that I have been out, and we have gotten a chance to chat and catch up which has been so absolutely great for me,you have no idea. The week and a half since I have been out has almost gone exactly the way I had hoped it would. I was released and got to spend a good week with my family here in Orange County. I then went to San Diego to spend some time with my Grandparents and also took a trip up to another favorite spot of mine. And now I am going to be returning to work this upcoming monday the 2nd of Febuary. I have found it just too hard at this time to put up the rest of the blog entries I wrote in jail,and will eventually. But I am more than that looking forward to sharing with you all stories from my adventures out here in the real world!

I will tell you that just in the last little bit since I have been out, I have managed to have some pretty epic experiences. Nightclubs and V.I.P. lounges in Hollywood (my "welcome back" parties) and various other nightlife meltdowns all over the place. Fires,vomit,cowboys,music,and lots of friends and food. And a whole lot security guards,bouncers and girls. I am quite happy to tell you that the Jordan I was once before I went to jail is slowly coming back but only in a good way. If you ever knew me in any capacity before then you know the kind of ridiculous mayhem I can get into,and that I am very good spirited fun loving guy who loves more than to just make people laugh and have a good time. And although when I first got back, I was still kinda weird about big crowds and everything,I am working my way back into it.

I wish I could tel you that it's all been great since I have been back. But I am also really very much looking forward to touching on some sensitive subjects that I have been able to experience since I have been back. I can honestly say that I am truly thankful to God for being free and being back in the area I was at before, but there is definately a strong feeling of disapointment surrounding my return in regards to certain people and places and situations. I have alot of friends that have moved away do the economy and family problems. People I know have really struggled to make ends meet during this time. People I love and truly value are fighting serious problems like addiction, gambling debts, legal problems. And people I know have even gone the route of suicide in my absence. It has been great coming back,don't get me wrong,but it has also in alot of ways been extremely challenging on many levels. And I am in alot of ways just trying to still deal with reality of being back in general.

There are alot of things that people that read this blog don't know about me,geez there are alot of things that I don't fully know about myself. And while I am not going to make too much of a serious effort to go in depth into sharing with you all my understanding of these aspects of my being that I am continually learning,I do hope that through my writing you may just come to learn soem of them yourself. You will find that I am not a perfect guy(believe it or not). I am in fact not that great of a guy all together at times and now that I am in charge of writing AND posting AND editing my entire blog I dont' have anyone to take out things that may make me look bad. But I will always be honest. I will still do my best to edit out any swearing that is involved in any of the entries,and any explicit material,to the best of my ability. But I just want tolet you all know right now that I may not always turn out the hero of these true stories. I am human. I am selfish and self-centered and vain and even rude and bratty sometimes. I don't drink or use drugs anymore. But I do swear from time to time,and I do play outragously over the top pranks on complete strangers that aren't always in the best of taste and could easily go wrong and hurt someone.

I get involved with horribly dramatic women,usually in multiples, and I proceed to go crazy in the situations I create. Basically what I am saying is that I will always tell you the truth. I don't want to pretend that I am as great a guy as I would like to. I am still very much a man who loves his God and am always praying and asking for guidence and wisdom and blessings. I am always seeking a better understanding of my personal relationship with my higher power. But with everything around us today it's not always that easy and I try to remain as aware of that fact as possible. And I just ask that all of you make an effort to do the same.

Also, I just ask that you all forgive me in some of my spelling and grammar. I no longer have an editor and proofreader so I very well may not always make sense for the pure and simple fact I cannot spell or command grammar.lol. But yeah, I will work on it. So with that, I want to first thank everyone who has been a reader of my blog over the past months and months of my incarceration. I really appreciate everything form the letters and books and prayers and always enjoy hearing from you all. And please stay tuned because here is where it has potential to really get good. And to everyone who is just reading this blog for the first time, hi. My name is Jordan. My friends call me NightHawk. Anything you need to know about my life up to this point that is of any importance to understanding my blog can be found in the past entries located here. I hope you can find the time to read them and comment on them.

And without further waiting or prolongment, Ladies and Gentlemen, my name is Jordan, and this is www.jordansinjail.blogspot.com. Please check back frequently. And I will be seeing you reall soon.